Apathetic on 3.2.08

I just finished SPECITs, and completed my research project last night. Despite getting those out of the way, I still have much more homework and other things to complete before the end of the night. Last night, I basically said "Fuck it, I'm tired of fighting, you do what you feel is right," to the friend I had that problem with friday night. I don't at all feel good with my decision, but what else could I do? This whole incident was deja vu of another close friend from NYC doing drugs (because all her friends were doing it) a few months ago, and me having to deal with that. I'm done caring, I still want to be friends with her even though her curiosity has outweighed the fears of her friends, and I'll just hope my decision was the right one. This weekend has sucked pretty badly, and friday was the first time in a long while that I was truly mad.

This weekend isn't really the best start to a blog. I'm not normally this brooding, it's just been a bad week. Honest to blog. Back to work...

Tired on 3.1.08

I'm exhausted, both mentally from yesterday (if you're wondering what happened yesterday, just read my last two posts), and physically from today. In brighter news, I've put my dread and disappointment from yesterday on hold today by not having a chance to talk to any of the people who caused the problems. Today was Lydia's birthday picnic, and was fun. Brooke was there, and both Clark and Mund soon came, along with other people I know like Donae and Katie. It was a sort of shelter from whatever emo little troubles I'm having, for a few hours. I then went over to Ben's house, where we proceeded to start writing our research paper. Tomorrow will be a dredge, and so will tonight, as I have the most amount of homework my teachers have given me this entire year. I need to finish this research paper tonight, so I have time to read an AP chapter and write specits, write five pages of a screenplay, and tweak my film festival project, all tomorrow.

Fun.