I just finished SPECITs, and completed my research project last night. Despite getting those out of the way, I still have much more homework and other things to complete before the end of the night. Last night, I basically said "Fuck it, I'm tired of fighting, you do what you feel is right," to the friend I had that problem with friday night. I don't at all feel good with my decision, but what else could I do? This whole incident was deja vu of another close friend from NYC doing drugs (because all her friends were doing it) a few months ago, and me having to deal with that. I'm done caring, I still want to be friends with her even though her curiosity has outweighed the fears of her friends, and I'll just hope my decision was the right one. This weekend has sucked pretty badly, and friday was the first time in a long while that I was truly mad.
This weekend isn't really the best start to a blog. I'm not normally this brooding, it's just been a bad week. Honest to blog. Back to work...
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Tired on 3.1.08
I'm exhausted, both mentally from yesterday (if you're wondering what happened yesterday, just read my last two posts), and physically from today. In brighter news, I've put my dread and disappointment from yesterday on hold today by not having a chance to talk to any of the people who caused the problems. Today was Lydia's birthday picnic, and was fun. Brooke was there, and both Clark and Mund soon came, along with other people I know like Donae and Katie. It was a sort of shelter from whatever emo little troubles I'm having, for a few hours. I then went over to Ben's house, where we proceeded to start writing our research paper. Tomorrow will be a dredge, and so will tonight, as I have the most amount of homework my teachers have given me this entire year. I need to finish this research paper tonight, so I have time to read an AP chapter and write specits, write five pages of a screenplay, and tweak my film festival project, all tomorrow.
Fun.
Fun.
Friday, February 29, 2008
MORE ANGER! on 2.29.08
DRUGS! What the fuck? WHAT THE FUCK? Seriously. What the fuck? Come on. Don't be fucking sheep. Come on. Why? Come on. What the fuck?
EDIT: I'll clarify what I'm talking about. One of my friends I had no idea smoked and did weed I found out today smokes and does weed. I was talking to one of my best friends online, a little later, and I found out she would basically do either if one of her friends told her to, and wouldn't care. I'm really worried. Oh, and now that I've shown that I'm anti-drug to her, she probably just wouldn't tell me if she did anything, knowing how I'd react.
EDIT: More clarification, I went to the movies with friends on Friday, and after sitting through what I thought to be not that bad a movie (Be Kind Rewind) and hearing them bitch about how much they hated it the whole time, they wandered off to go smoke. Congrats to Nia, however, for not giving in to peer pressure and joining them. I came home afterwards and told one of my best friends about what had happened, and after talking for a bit about it she said her brother regularly smoked weed, and because of talking with him alot she was interested in trying it out as well. I don't really see the appeal of it, "Hey let's inhale some smoke and chemicals, and then lose control of our brain functions for a few hours! Awesome!"
EDIT: I'll clarify what I'm talking about. One of my friends I had no idea smoked and did weed I found out today smokes and does weed. I was talking to one of my best friends online, a little later, and I found out she would basically do either if one of her friends told her to, and wouldn't care. I'm really worried. Oh, and now that I've shown that I'm anti-drug to her, she probably just wouldn't tell me if she did anything, knowing how I'd react.
EDIT: More clarification, I went to the movies with friends on Friday, and after sitting through what I thought to be not that bad a movie (Be Kind Rewind) and hearing them bitch about how much they hated it the whole time, they wandered off to go smoke. Congrats to Nia, however, for not giving in to peer pressure and joining them. I came home afterwards and told one of my best friends about what had happened, and after talking for a bit about it she said her brother regularly smoked weed, and because of talking with him alot she was interested in trying it out as well. I don't really see the appeal of it, "Hey let's inhale some smoke and chemicals, and then lose control of our brain functions for a few hours! Awesome!"
ANGER! on 2.29.08
I dislike most of the people in the TV Production program. Not in my specific class, but in both the older and younger TV classes. And, of course, today served as a reminder of both this dislike of both them, and an annoyance of my teacher. The last few days our class started running the daily school news, and we've been experimenting with more interesting ways of filming it, because frankly, the news as it and as it's run by the TV 3 and 4 classes is incredibly boring, and nobody cares about it. Today when I came into class, however, my teacher told us that we'd have to do the news straight from now on, as he didn't like how the other, more exciting versions came out. We therefore did what he asked, and made the news as monotone and boring as we could today. I'm not sure how Mr. Schwartz will react, but it had to be done.
The other thing that occurred in TV Prod which served to increase my ire was a continuation of events that started wednesday. Wednesday was the VPA recital, and it was one of the worst I have been to during the two years at my school. One of the worst additions to the recital was by my very own magnet, a horribly boring, horribly edited, and horribly received film on the TV Production Class Of 2009, and was simply questions about the program asked by the juniors to other TV Production juniors. To avoid falling asleep during the showing of it, Ben, Mike Patti, and I came up for an idea of a spoof of it, which would be funnier, more interesting, and better filmed than the shitfest that was the Class Of 09 video. I won't even begin to talk about the other two films we showed, another generic slow-and-uninteresting music video to a bad song starring a senior in the program and her butt-ugly boyfriend (And to think, she submitted ten of her videos to the upcoming film festival. I'll have a good nap while they play), and a well-edited but typically stupid video by another junior or senior, and their never-ending supply of dumb short films. Back to my main point, I told my teacher of our idea for a spoof of that video, and he vetoed it, saying people would be offended because they worked hard on it. The irony of the situation was lost on Mr. Schwartz, that every day in the recent past he's overlooked some kids in my class as they added their own dialogue to a stop-action animation this weird kid in another class did, effectively creating a parody of it. Inconsistancies in this program are abundant, and I'm fed up with it. Screw it, I'm still going to film my parody, it just won't be shown at the next VPA recital, where it would be the best received.
My frustration didn't abate with the conclusion of TV Production, however, as my next period was Chemistry, where I have to deal every day with an incredibly flirtatious "friend" of mine consistantly whoring the attentions of my friends in that class. I use the term "friend" loosely in his case, as I don't much care for the kid. I realize that the two other friends I talk to in that class most likely enjoy him more than me, and I probably have come off as depressed or antisocial in that class the past two or three weeks, but I'm tired of trying to get a word in edgewise to them. Flirting between the three of them is at ridiculous levels, and while I don't hold anything against the two girls (aside from them not seeming to mind him at all), I'm done with the one guy. Luckily, I've got other people I can talk to in that class, but it is a bit sad to be slowly edged out of a group.
My day more or less improved after that, algebra 2 was algebra 2, lunch was wonderful as always, and ap world history was fun, fooling around in the back of the class with jeff and kelli and justine and carina. I'll hopefully be seeing a movie tonight, not one that I'm particularly excited about, but I'll be with friends. I downloaded the episode of Lost from last night, which was one of the best episodes of the entire series. And tomorrow is a new day.
The other thing that occurred in TV Prod which served to increase my ire was a continuation of events that started wednesday. Wednesday was the VPA recital, and it was one of the worst I have been to during the two years at my school. One of the worst additions to the recital was by my very own magnet, a horribly boring, horribly edited, and horribly received film on the TV Production Class Of 2009, and was simply questions about the program asked by the juniors to other TV Production juniors. To avoid falling asleep during the showing of it, Ben, Mike Patti, and I came up for an idea of a spoof of it, which would be funnier, more interesting, and better filmed than the shitfest that was the Class Of 09 video. I won't even begin to talk about the other two films we showed, another generic slow-and-uninteresting music video to a bad song starring a senior in the program and her butt-ugly boyfriend (And to think, she submitted ten of her videos to the upcoming film festival. I'll have a good nap while they play), and a well-edited but typically stupid video by another junior or senior, and their never-ending supply of dumb short films. Back to my main point, I told my teacher of our idea for a spoof of that video, and he vetoed it, saying people would be offended because they worked hard on it. The irony of the situation was lost on Mr. Schwartz, that every day in the recent past he's overlooked some kids in my class as they added their own dialogue to a stop-action animation this weird kid in another class did, effectively creating a parody of it. Inconsistancies in this program are abundant, and I'm fed up with it. Screw it, I'm still going to film my parody, it just won't be shown at the next VPA recital, where it would be the best received.
My frustration didn't abate with the conclusion of TV Production, however, as my next period was Chemistry, where I have to deal every day with an incredibly flirtatious "friend" of mine consistantly whoring the attentions of my friends in that class. I use the term "friend" loosely in his case, as I don't much care for the kid. I realize that the two other friends I talk to in that class most likely enjoy him more than me, and I probably have come off as depressed or antisocial in that class the past two or three weeks, but I'm tired of trying to get a word in edgewise to them. Flirting between the three of them is at ridiculous levels, and while I don't hold anything against the two girls (aside from them not seeming to mind him at all), I'm done with the one guy. Luckily, I've got other people I can talk to in that class, but it is a bit sad to be slowly edged out of a group.
My day more or less improved after that, algebra 2 was algebra 2, lunch was wonderful as always, and ap world history was fun, fooling around in the back of the class with jeff and kelli and justine and carina. I'll hopefully be seeing a movie tonight, not one that I'm particularly excited about, but I'll be with friends. I downloaded the episode of Lost from last night, which was one of the best episodes of the entire series. And tomorrow is a new day.
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